I AM a Runner!

I have made a big decision since my 4 mile race two weeks ago. I've decided to embark upon a new, more lofty goal.  I am going to run a half marathon!  Yes, that's right....Ive decided to do it!  The first annual Greater Binghamton Bridge Run half marathon is on May 15th and I am going to be one of the runners!  Holy crap! 

Since I made this big decision I have been training.  Dave found me a 10 week schedule and I have been sticking to it pretty faithfully.  I run shorter lengths, like 3-4 miles on Mondays and Thursdays. On Wednesdays I do a longer run, about 5-6 miles and then Saturday is my distance day.  The first Saturday we ran 6.5 miles.  This past Saturday I ran 9 miles!  Can you believe that?!?  9 freakin miles!  And I didn't die!!  This upcoming Saturday will be 10 miles and I will increase a mile each week until I hit 12 miles.  Then I will work my way back down again....and then it will be race day!!

Since I found out that I can actually run...distances...without stopping I have been excited about running.  I think about it all the time and I look forward to going out and beating myself each time.  Right now I'm not concerned at all about being fast...I just want to finish.  I do feel myself getting better each time though.  And running the shorter distances like 3 and 4 miles are almost easy now. 

What I am finding difficult it the time I spend away from the boys.  I feel like I'm neglecting them a little.  Between work and running and the gym and the chiropractor (whom I see like 3 times a week) I feel like I'm not spending enough time with them.  I tell myself that I need to do this-for me, for my mental health, for my health.  And that I do spend time with them...every evening we have a good 3-4 hours together before bedtime and we spend all weekend together.  But that doesn't help the guilt that I feel.  I am hoping that once it warms up Dave and I will be able to take the boys running with us...it makes it more difficult for Dave but it would be time that we could all spend together.  And summer is around the corner.....only 7 more paychecks!!

The race is in 6 weeks and I am looking forward to continuing my training!  I can't wait to go for 12 miles in a couple weeks!  Updates will be posted!

PS-I am down 30lbs!  I hope running will help me lose the next 10lbs by June!